Frustration!!

I am so frustrated with the way things are going right now. I mean, there are many blessings that we have right now too, so I don't want to forget those. Porter has been having blood in his poo since he was born. We took him into the ER when he was 2 weeks old really freaked out about it. They just said that it was probably my milk that was making him have the blood but not to stop breast feeding. They said that I should stay away from milk and cheese and that should help. So, the bleeding had stopped. Then we moved to Utah and Josh got out of the Marine Corps and we didn't have health insurance anymore. He had another episode with lots of blood in his diaper again (at about 2 months old). We didn't take him into the doctor but waited like 2 or 3 days and it went away. Well, lately (like the past 2 weeks) he has been throwing up (like vomit) at least once a day. He has also been acting strange. (trust me, I know him best). It's almost like an hour after each feeding (which is increasing) he has this massive fit! Like something is not digesting or something. You can surely tell that he is in pain. We have been trying to get CHIP ever since his second bleeding episode. They need the dumbest papers and take forever!! Well, last week Porter wasn't keeping anything down all day so I finally just went to the doctor. (without insurance). She said that the vomiting should stop but she is concerned about his bloody diapers. I didn't study his poop before but now I see it, he has been pooping blood all along. Just a little tiny bit in select diapers. Well, the doc tested the diaper for blood and it was positive. So I guess I am so frustrated that my son is obviously sick. He has something wrong with his little tummy. He is in pain. I can't afford to run to Primary Children's for testing that he needs. I call CHIP like everyday and try to explain to them that I need insurance for Porter and that I need the financial help now! I don't know what else to do than to just wait. If anyone has anything to say especially advise, please comment. Hopefully Josh will be getting a good job soon. He has applied to many places and is in an interview now. I just hope that we can get insurance through a job or that CHIP can help us out soon. Thanks for the rave.

Porter

I really don't have anything to write. These cute pictures I just had to share. This is Josh's hat and sunglasses that Porter is wearing.

Kairi

Here is one more cute picture of little Kairi. My brother (those who know him) is so excited!!

New Niece

My brother and his wife had their baby today! She was 6 lbs 13 oz and 19 inches long! Look at that hair! All was well with mom and baby. This is the only picture we have so far and it's from a camera phone, so it's not that great. They named her Kairi Belle White.

Growing up

I am convinced that the reasons babies grow up so fast is for their mommy. :) It is so fun to see him grow and develop and not be just that cute little blob that you love so much. I love the blob stage and the snuggles I get from it, but I love the starting to smile and recognize things stage. He is starting to know his own body. Like eating his hand for example. :) I love that Porter can hold his head up and look around. He drools alot! Mostly because he blows so many little spit bubbles. :) He focuses on things close and far away. I love all the many cute dimple faced smiles. I love being a mommy.

New shotgun

Josh just got a new shotgun with our tax money. (this is not his new gun pictured) His new shotgun is semi automatic. I haven't ever shot it. I have only shot his other shotgun, one time. That was our first date, hunting rabbits. He is an amazing shot. Trust me! He used to teach rifle shooting in the Marine Corps. He must be good enough to ask him teach people how to aim and feel good around and about the guns. Hopefully we will be going soon and he can teach me to be super amazing. Then when we go with his brothers, they will all be impressed. I am so happy that my husband has such awesome talents, this is one among many. :)

Friends

I am just so glad that I have such good friends. There have been friends who have been there through thick and thin. (and I'm not talking about my weight) One of them, Emily, just came to visit me and meet Porter. Em, I love ya! Emily and I have know each other for 10 years! It's more like a sister connection than anything. I was so proud to show my little boy off to her. I can't wait till she has her little lady. (still think it'll be a girl) It was so good to see her and it wasn't even a bit awkward. I am so happy to know that my personality is cool enough to keep friends for over a decade! :) Anyway, I am so grateful for the relationships that we have with our friends.

(That means you too Becca, thanks for scrapbooking with me last week.)